Friday, January 15, 2016

In the blink of an eye

 a year has passed us by.
Another year rolled on while we were dreaming.

It's hard for me to believe that we started this journey in the late 70's and continue on today.
What has changed, you might ask?
Many things, I would answer.
My hair was darker, my children smaller, my energy levels higher, my family larger.
If we could look in the future, how would we perceive what we see?
With happiness and sadness I imagine. With Good and bad, with laughter and tears.
Because life is ever changing and never stands still.

When I am working there are times I have all my thoughts on what is next. There are other times that all my thoughts are on what is behind me.
I am not sure which I like best.
 I do know that you can not live in the past, and
that the future rolls up to your door like rolling thunder, a gentle breeze, the breathe of a baby, the look of a lover, it calls and you go. You just can not resist the pull.
 As January rolled in I was hit with the thought that no one tells you that when you lose a love one it is not birthdays you remember most but the month that you lost them.
My mother spared us Christmas, I think because she loved it so.
Instead she left mid- January, winter, dreary, not her favorite time of the year.

It's the little things we all miss.
Her voice, the way she would call your name, the lift in her voice when she talked about something she enjoyed, her laughter, her joy, her stories.
Pour me an old fashion tonight, warm, with bitters, sugar and orange. Then let me curl up and drink in the memories of past days, for tomorrow we breathe again.

Kiln loaded, fire tomorrow.
Unload next week.

Moving on in to 2016.




16 comments:

Laurie said...

I love this post, Meredith. Some beautiful writing. Yes, the month they leave is one you remember. I may need to try an old fashion!

cookingwithgas said...

Yes, yes, and yes let's go have one.

Anna said...

Yes indeed we miss them when they leave and remember them at that time too. Very poetic words... here's to good things and good firings in 2016

Gary's third pottery blog said...

:)

Judy Shreve said...

Wishing you warmth and good memories !!

smartcat said...

Lovely post.
As usual the kiln looks like it should be a poster.
Happy memories.

Michèle Hastings said...

I have REALLY tried to focus on birthdays, instead of the days my love or my mother, left this world. But it's difficult. The day of loss has a stronger pull. It gets easier with time, but it's always there.
Be well.

Laurie said...

So where would we go to get one? Bia's or Positano's, I suppose?

cookingwithgas said...

Bias, they know how to make one. Now, when?

PotterMiller said...

Ahhhhh Meredith…… just beautiful. Happy New Year and thank you for posting as this post will be rolling through my mind while I'm throwing pots today….. :)

cookingwithgas said...

Thanks Sandy....your post give me thought as well.

Shortstuff said...

<3

Shortstuff said...

That was supposed to turn into a heart.

cookingwithgas said...

It's a heart, no matter what it looks like....:)

Lori Buff said...

Sending love your way.

Karen (formerly kcinnova) said...

Beautifully written, Meredith. And yes, while birthdays are still remembered, it's the other dates of death and surgeries and illness that stand out. I hope you got your Old Fashioned that evening.